It’s been two years since I wrote my last post and a lot has changed. Originally, I was hesitant to get back into blog writing because of my fear of failure. “What if no one reads it?”, “Maybe I shouldn’t be so open in an online space”, “Am I even good enough for this”.
For the last two years, I have put my passion for writing and expressing myself on the backburner all out of fear. Today, that stops. I wanted to make a comeback because writing is my “thing”. It’s a way for me to get my emotions out in a way that makes sense to me. So here’s a little life update of some of the things that I’ve been up to throughout the last few years.
My love life
We all know about that huge thing that happened back in January of 2020, during this time, I was dealing with a breakup that left me feeling isolated and confused. I was also trying to find a job in my field (for the 100th time) after being laid off, and making peace with the fact that I would be on lockdown, by myself, for what seemed like a very long time.
Another year went by as it normally does, and I started browsing around on dating apps, in hopes of finding someone better, someone new, and through a lot of trial and error. I did. I met a great guy, who I am currently going through life with, and although we had a handful of ups and downs, I now feel confident in sharing how I’m currently navigating this new space that I am in.
My career goals
The saying rings true, “if there isn’t one thing, then there’s another”, and I’ve had my fair share of dead-end job opportunities that have left me broke, bitter, and frustrated throughout the last two years. I spent a lot of time figuring out my next move financially.
I started a juicing business that continues to help me stay motivated toward my fitness goals while educating my community on the benefits of healthy living. I took a business course that allowed me to get certified in one-on-one coaching, and today, I currently work in a field that allows me to be creative, ambitious, and driven in the realm of social media marketing.
My health and well-being
This was/is the part of my life that I always struggle with. One minute I feel confident and proud of the skin that I’m in, then the next I binge eating and beat myself up for the things that I cannot control. This led to weight gain, depression, and a lot of anxiety attacks.
For years I spent so much time worrying about other people and pleasing everyone around me, and I quickly forgot what it felt like to put myself first. I started going to therapy to help me process my self-image and I’m happy to reveal that it has been such a huge help.
Today, I’m on my journey toward better health through the coping skills that I’ve learned. Although I have quite a long way to go before I feel 100% like myself again, I feel good knowing that I’m writing again for myself. No one else, just me…